The ink to my diary.

I realize, that things never turn out the way they should. I think, everything that is happening is horrible. The only good thing is Sean. God, I love him so much. I can’t wait, to hear his voice all night long. I would wait, all night for him if I could but I have tons to do tomorrow and I am very tired. I know, he is in my life for a reason. I want to talk to him right now. He probably fell asleep. Maybe? Who knows. I wonder if I will even be able to go to sleep tonight because he will be on my mind. Anyways, everything in my life is so….stressful right now. I can’t believe this is actually happening. It is just so unreal. I hope, things just turn out better. I have one more month left and I can’t spend it like this. I don’t even want to think about school right now. I hate how I get stressed out already and it is a month away. I haven’t read a book for almost three months now. I think, that is pretty sad. Hopefully, things will settle down and I can read again. Goodnight.

Andrew Becket, you are my life. Everyword you say makes me smile. I am proud, to be yours and to be loved by such a man who is full of love. I am proud, to call you mine. It is something, I have been waiting for. My love for you will never go away. Never. The love you give to me, is amazing. It leaves me breathless. I can’t say anything, but that I love you. That’s all I can say anymore. Today, for some odd reason you made me want to be better. You make me want to be better to my parents. No one has ever done that to me. You make me happy. I don’t want school, to start because well, things will get stressful. I know, that you believe in me and that is all I need. I believe in you and whatever you do with your life it will be amazing and wonderful. I wish I was with you right now. I want to be in your arms. I know, that no matter where you are right now, you are thinking about me too. I hope to talk to you, again tonight so I am able to go to sleep with a smile on my face. You are mine forever and always. I love you. 7/21.

Today, I woke up and I was in love. I woke up with a smiling face because I thought of him. Words can’t explain how I feel when I talk to him. He is a prince and I hope someday to be his princess. I think, you are adorable, smart, charming, loving, caring, and funny. You have took hold of my heart and I don’t want it back. You can hold onto it forever along with many other hearts, just know that mine with every heartbeat it took it was because of you and why it started to beat faster when you took my hand or looked into my eyes. I belong to you. I just want you to belong to me. I want you to kiss me in the rain. I want to feel alive every moment that I look at you and know that you are mine. You make me smile when you talk to me. I never want you to get offline and leave. I want to talk to you every minute of my life because if I did all I would ever have is a smile on my face.

You are a prince in my mind. You are everything a girl could look for. You are the light to the end of a bad night. You are the perfect end to a perfect night. I wish, I was able to look into your eyes, call you mine, and know it is forever. Hopefully, someday you will be mine because that is all I pray to God about anymore. You are my life already and I love you for it. I love you for making me happy again. I love the way you write. I love everything about you. I love you…it is that simple.

“I was born to tell you I love you.”

“You were put on this earth to make me a better person.”

“I love you to the moon, the stars, and back. And even than I still love you.”